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09 Apr 2006, 9:32 am / Angry
Forcing my trembling fingers to flick the light switch on,
A buzzing in my head,
Squinted eyes flooded with fiery tears,
Eyes sore with smoke and sorrow,
Leaned against the wall in a place of mirrors and porcelain,
Giving in to the hopelessness of the situation,
Gazing down at the cracks with a quivering heart,
Whispering to myself..."It will always be like this.",
My head throbs as my spirit does,
I stumble back into Darkness,
Feeling a sense of vertigo as I sob my way through it all,
Collapsing back onto the mattress,
Helplessly keeping my head downcast as everything spins,
I already know the answer,
She scolds me for stating how it probably all will be,
Saying she doesn't know,
But still filling me with dillusions,
Maybe it's true,
Maybe I'm just a fucking compulsive liar with nothing more to hope for.
It really is going to be like this...always.
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