10 Oct 2006, 9:45 pm / Lonely
I don't connect with people.
I've been told I was intimidating.
ME?!
I try to be the nicest person.
It's my appearance?
Who knows.
I don't like it here.
Let me go.
Everyone knows me, but I am a nobody.
Does that make sense to you?
No one KNOWS me.
My "friends" don't know me.
Maybe I don't let people in.
Maybe people don't want me in.
Maybe I am just a failure with people.
But why is it I understand them so well.
I might not completely, but I do more than many.
MANY, this general amount of the people.
People tell me guys don't approach me because they think I am too good for them.
Fine.
Get some freakin' guts if that's the case.
I am on the same level as you practically.
I don't have an ass load of confidence.
Maybe I am such a good actor that I don't even realize I am acting every day to be.. "Becky".
Myabe I just piss myself off.
Maybe, just maybe, I am afraid of what I can become and don't want to let myself out.
Who knows.. because I don't even know!
It's insane!
EVERYTHING!
All of my generalizations too.
They're always fun.
Not even my family understands me.
How would you feel every day to be called weird by your mother.. when, to you, you're acting normal.
It's depressing!
I am a sarcastic comic.. and no one has caught on yet?
I am perverted and sick at times...
Like the blister in my mouth and the one on the back of my heel!
OW!
BLISTER!!!
I get.. a stare?!
I think I might as well explode.
Yes...
And I've ranted and raved on when really I should be studying for my... my... LAME Biology test. I have a C in that class! How do I get a C?! Eh!? The teacher is weird as heck. He mumbles more than I do! ME! Mumble queen! He looses peoples papers and doesn't give me a grade for things that I made up from being absent. I think I'll kill him and take away everything scientific to him. RAWR. He's like one of those people that like to hike and look at the moss and classify and describe it.
Goodnight!
ARGE!!!
-Baroque
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