DATE: 21 Sep 2008, 12:30 pm / MOOD: Other

I’m pretty sure I’m a pain slut.

I don’t like being hurt bad or anything, but I feel so good after it’s done.
When I know I’m going to get hurt, I put all my negative emotions into that one moment. When the pain finally comes, it’s amazing, I can’t even begin to describe it.
It’s like having a new slate and nothing from the past can hurt you.
In a way, it’s almost like a spiritual cleansing.

But I’m not gonna lie, cuz I like pain in a completely unholy way as well. *Nudge, nudge. Wink, wink.*
But when done sexually or sadistically, it’s different. Not spiritual, but still very important and releasing.
I don’t give up control often, so to let someone do that to me is very special. Or maybe the most brutal form of control! Dun dun dun!


And if your wondering why I’m talking about pain, it’s because I got the other side of my lip done!

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DATE: 16 Nov 2006, 6:03 am / MOOD: Dont know

i have come to the conclusion that i really like making movies. in my film class we have been doing this alot. horror movies, stop mtion and comercials. in my horror movie, my partner aaron got eaten by a giant ball of silly putty. we helped another student with his and where eaten by tofu. my class is inmaginative. but we are also working with film. me and aaron are entering thew school board zoom fest witha video about speeking up and fight for what you belive in. yeah, its about bulling. kinda trivial. i have been using alot of dir en grey music for background music and most of them match what i'm doing, whic is great. i love film.  oh man. this is, well i don't know. but i really want to get into the bussiness.

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DATE: 06 Nov 2006, 6:34 am / MOOD: Full of life

Wow, i ahve had a intresting morning! i was on the bus to school when our breaks locked up and started smoking. then suddenly there was fire. we all rushed off the bus into the forest beside us and to the house only a few meters away. our bus driver used a fire extingisher to put out the blaze. in the end, only our tires caught on fire and satrted to leek. we had to wait another half an hour for a new bus to come and get us. i was only 17 min late for my first class and my teacher thought it was hillarious. i hope the rest of the day is as adventful as this morning. 

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DATE: 27 Oct 2006, 7:55 am / MOOD: Other

Jeff Powell? oh man. in tech we are doing editings of movies. right now we are fiddling with a scene from the show 11 hour. well the first scene the detective guy asks 'jeff powell?'. we have now heard that sentance over a billion times, and it hillarious. or extremly annoying to others. but i think it great. well marshll, a kid in my class, ran down that hall asking for a jeff powell. once again, it was great. 

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DATE: 12 Oct 2006, 6:26 am / MOOD: Other

ok everyone, this is what is going on. what we are doing is called mission 1017. on october 17, there is a great amount of energy will come down to earth and increase everything by the millionth. so everthing you do will be ampilfied, every happy thought, every mean word. we need to get over a million people to try and only think and do good things. this will bring back so much positive energy that it will do amazing things. heal, bring hope and ect. i hope you will join this cause on the 17 of october. if you do, please leave me a post. if you have and thing to say about this for or against, please leave me a post.

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DATE: 03 Oct 2006, 5:56 am / MOOD: Other

yeah... alot of thinds have happened lately, and wow its been bussy. me and my boyfriend are back together, but its not the same, we have to rebulid that trust thing. its a little odd. i have made my first video ever, its about shoes. shoes that run away. very intresting. i also got drunk for the first time...ever. off two coolers, thats it. then i had another and a beer. i was sober by two in the morning. the funny part is that it was with my friend and mom... my mom. my brother was there, playing tricks on me, i nearly smaked him, he was so annoying. no live changing event have happened so far, except my kitchen is almost complete. hoot and haller.

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DATE: 19 Sep 2006, 7:43 am / MOOD: Dont know

Hello
I have missed you so
Pray this is not the end
But deep in your soul
You wish it is
These things i cannot say
For fear of cutting to deep
Leave now
I wish you where gone
i away from you
I'm breaking like a twig
And you won't save me
I won't let you.

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DATE: 15 Sep 2006, 6:33 am / MOOD: Dont know

Wow, i haven't done this is a long time... Eh Ghad. i'm in my video class right now (thank you Gothopia, for destroying my concertation.) we have started stop motion, whih is going to reall fun. i already have a idea. for you who read Ann Rice, you should know what the savage graden is. i want to make a video about that. to have clips of people walking down the street, a flower slowly blooming, ect. there would be voice over, explaining my version of the idea. it would be at least intrestion. The porblem is that i doubt many would unerstand my point of view. i also doubt that you do. i just seem that i can be very confusing. When we get the sites up a running, i'll put a link up. Then you can go and at least try to grasp the concept of my madness.

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DATE: 11 Sep 2006, 6:47 am / MOOD: Other

today is sept 11, the day the Trade Center was destroyed by terroists. I live in canada, so i can only just understand the pain the americans felt, fear from your loved ones. i bearly know my american family, but i felt a chrushing grief, when I was told the news, i nearly broke down in class. we must never froget this happened, that so many died. i my not tbe american, but i can sharf there grief. today, give them your prayers, for thoes who have gone before and thoes who must carry te pain for the rest of there life. we must not forget.

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DATE: 03 Sep 2006, 7:17 pm / MOOD: Other

unfortunatly, i did not come up with these


1. Eat all his plums.

2. Watch Regency films at the loudest volume the TV will go to.

3. Paint his headbright bluewhile he sleeps.

4. Throw a Surprise Birthday Party 11 months early.

5. Haggle his underwear to fan girls.

6. Forge lustful sayings about Tsunades boobs in his journal and read them to random Sound nin.

7. Scream, COME, OROCHI-KUN! IT IS TIME TO DANCE!, yank him up from his chair, and begin a waltz.

8. Carry around a lobster. Make the lobster talk and walk on his head.

9. Cry and demand he make a casserole with the remains of the lobster once he successfully murders it.

10. Hire Maito Gai and his youthful charge Lee to come and cheer him up.

11. Make muffins, and cram them down his throat.

12. Stand on his desk with a wooden spoon in your hand for two hours.

13. At breakfast, suddenly snort and scream, and then shove the comics page into his face.

14. Final Fantasy Cosplay.

15. Shoot him in the butt with a suction dart gun.

16. Speak in internet terms. (W00t, L33t, DEHN, ROFL)

17. Sing Weird Als Jerry Springer Song.

18. Tape a picture of Hyuuga Neji to his arse.

19. When he goes to sleep, sneak into his room, place a bottle of Nasonex under his nose, and slam the little squirt button.

20. Whenever he stretches himself, poke him in the stomach and yell, I can see your midriff!

21. Fill all the showers in his fortress with Jello.

22. Hug him.

23. Tightly.

24. Dance up and down the halls of his fortress listening to your Ipod.

25. Knock him out, bound and gag him, and throw him into the ball pool at Chuckee Cheeses.

26. Share ice cream cones with his snakes.

27. Ring the doorbell to his fortress, then run away and hide in the bushes.

28. Sit at his shoulder when hes trying to do paperwork, and ask him personal questions.

29. Whenever he goes outside, walk behind him pointing at his butt, saying Bu-TOCKS, Bu-TOCKS.

30. Bookmark a Oro/Kabu fan fiction thats rated M.

Orochimarus Reaction:

.-snort-. I would kill whoever did these things to me. the Snake Sannin giggled, reaching a hand to his mouth in a womanly fashion.

He suddenly gave a start. Whats an Oro/Kabu fan fiction?

Orochimaru typed his slender fingers onto the keyboard, entering the words Oro/Kabu, Rated M into Google. He clicked the Search button and folded his hands, waiting patiently. A few links appeared, and he clicked it eagerly, but of course not showing it on his face.

Seconds later, he squinted at the screen, his mouth forming the words silently. His slender yellow eyes widened, and he screamed very fan girl-icily.

Well, more went, GAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH! and fell backwards in his chair, spasming from a heart attack.

Orochimaru-Sama? Kabuto looked through the door. OROCHIMARU-SAMA!

In a horribly clich motion, he ran over to his fallen master and checked the pulse of the man who was laying in a fetal position and whimpering. He double-took at the screen, and then pushed his nose.

Teenage fan girls, eh? he whispered soothingly.

Orochimaru shook his head, curling tighter into a ball.

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