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07 May 2010, 3:29 pm / Happy
so, my girlfriend sarah, is in labour as we speak only reason im home is because the ward shes on has stupid visiting hours seeing as shes still in kinda early stages and isnt in the maternity ward yet. would much rather be there than home - but i havnt slept for 2 days so i spose its about time i tried eh? im so happy its finally happening, but in a way i wish it wasnt. feel like im gonna be judged constantly - and i dunnow if im gonna be a good dad i mean i hope i am, but i dunnow.. i get nervous around kids. dont really know how to act, maybe instinct will kick in, i dunnow. its really annoying aswell, because i can see how much pain shes in, and she keeps asking me to make it stop, but theres just nothing i can do other than tell her its gonna be over soon - but as much as it sounds sweet and shit me saying that - it aint a painkiller is it? little micheal should be with us tomorow, will be weird im gonna be a dad... a dad... still dont sound right.. well not that it doesnt sound right - it just doesnt really sound... i dunnow its just weird. well just wanted to let people know - and let some shit out really, noone here i can talk to about it, seeing as im living with her parents hundreds of miles away from anyone i know. so cant really say anything bad (not that there was anything bad... but dont feel comfortable with em yet - her dads an old school shovenistic pig (i realise i am also a shovenistic pig... but atleast i admit it!.. well i joke alot about it anywayz) and her mum... well we dont get on, she tries to make jusgements and facts made from guesses, and tries to take over any situation... but i cant tell em to fuck off or im on the streets) but anyway, enough from me in a bit people Steve. AKA Stevo
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