I don't know why you hide your face, 'cause I'm comin' for your neck...
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Female
29 years old
Akron, Ohio
United States
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MY DETAILS
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MEMBER SINCE:
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26 Jun 2006, 9:18 pm |
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LAST LOGIN:
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12 Nov 2007, 6:26 am |
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The Cure-Seraphim Shock-Nine Inch Nails-Dead Can Dance-Death In June-Love Spirals Downwards-Cruxshadows-Bella Morte-Bauhaus-New Order-Wumpscut-Rasputina-Gossamer-The Creatures-Diva Destruction-Dir En Grey-Joy Division-London After Midnight-VNV Nation-Siouxsie And The Banshees-Blutengel-His Infernal Majesty-Lacuna Coil-Nick Cave-Clan Of Xymox-The Cranes-Black Tape For A Blue Girl-Razed In Black-Ministry-Cocteau Twins-Fields Of The Nephilim-Sisters Of Mercy-Mushroomhead-Star Industry-Inkubus Sukkubus-The Pixies-Within Temptation-Psychotica-Depeche Mode-Blutengel-Misfits-Lycia-Audra-Skinny Puppy-The Cranes-The Swans-Christian Death-Stone Temple Pilots-Insane Clown Posse-Twiztid-Anybody Killa-Jumpsteady-Blaze Ya Dead Homie-Tech N9ne-80's (more)
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About Yourself
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My nickname is Heathen, so that what you will call me. I am a crippled mess. I don't know or care why disabled people cannot be accepted in society. Being disabled does not effect my being a good hearted person or having a warm, firey but withdrawn personality. I was abused as a child by my drunken sperm donor and by all my mother's boyfriend's after that. It has only been a year since Ive gotten out of that situation. If my mother wants to be mentally, verbally and physically abused and ultimately let them take a healthy shit on her life, that's fine. But she can do it without my presence. My fiancee', Robert, salvaged me from them. He can be an asshole at times but nothing compares to being in hell.
I am a total physical, emotional and mental wreck. I was born at Akron General Medical Center twenty-two years ago. My mother drank while she was pregnant with me. They found out I was allergic to sulfa-based drugs. My biological father, Richard Alexander Campbell, was very physically abusive to my mother, Hilary, my sister, Mahala, and myself. He was also a child molester. The television and the stereo were my guardians and friends back in the 80's, that is why I enjoy 80's music and pop culture now. My grandmother was my savior from my father most of the time because we lived upstairs from her. She would hear me scream and she would yell for my mother to "BRING THAT BABY DOWN HERE!" I would have welts and bruises all over me. I would have burns on me as well from him spilling hot coffee on me or burning me with scalding spoons or whatever he could find. He'd tease us with food, neglect us, malnourish us and my mother did not even try to get us away from there till my grandmother said either you divorce him or I'm kicking all of you out. She divorced him but it did not stop the abuse. My mother is a magnet for jerks. Up until I moved out of my mothers house about a year ago, I kept getting mentally and physically abused by all her boyfriends. She is very much a sorry excuse for a mother. She says she "has allegience" toward her husband she has now, William Fredrick Lewis. He is an alcoholic and very cruel and brutal. From where I am standing, she has "had allegience" to every "man" she has been with since I was born.
I wish you could do magick and take my ailments away. I have Scoliosis which is curvature of the spine, hip dysplasia, nervous system problems, social anxiety disorder, depression, a weak heart and not to mention poor balance, dizziness and vertigo. Im not in a wheelchair yet but I just had x-rays done the other day and my spine looks like a road map with a curve degree of 180. That is terrible. It keeps getting worse and worse. It started really getting bad when I was 15 years old and kept progressing from there. Im so frightened that I am going to be a parapalegic. An example of my nervousness is that I tremble alot and I have trouble talking sometimes. I stumble over words. I get frustrated with myself so often and most of the time the pain is unbearable. I have to take two Darvocet every night just so I can sleep. I have a boyfriend who likes recieving but not giving massages. I wish he would. Other than that, I have the biggest, most generous and most loving heart you could have. Sometimes that is my double edged sword though. I am three quarters Cherokee/Blackfoot Indian. I am very proud of that.
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BDSM-Fetishes-Dark Makeup-Nail Polish-Thrift Stores-Cemetaries-Costume Shops-Cats/Kittens-Pet Shops-Prisons-Mansions-Stephen King-Cuddling-Teasing-Tickling-Making Love-Talking During Sex-Sex Toys-Pornography-Haunted Houses-Horror-Erotica-Babies-Thunderstorms-Guys In Makeup-Autumn-Some Goth and Fetish Clubs-Reading-Writing-Drawing-Poetry-Art Museums-Personal Space-Astrology-Science...
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Turn offs
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Homophobia-Lies-Betrayal-Arrogance-Big Egos-Girls That Say They Are Bisexual When They Shouldn't Be Having Sex In The First Place-Breakups-Dirtiness (BATHE, People!)-When I get Yelled At-Child Abuse/Neglect-Animal Abuse/Neglect-Reality Shows-"What Not To Wear" (the whore on that show needs shot)-Broken Hearts-Broken Bones-Broken Homes-Strippers-Prostitutes-Drug Abusers-Loud Music When I Need Or Want Quiet-Pickled Eggs-Peanut Butter-Squeaky Beds-Hospitals-That I Never Had A Brother-Guns/Rifles (and everthing that has to do with them)-"Rolling Ghettoblasters" (cars with the loud rap music playing, they annoy the holy hell out of me)-Cheating-Type O Negative-Rap/Country/Hip Hop/R&B-When Someone Disrespects THE 80'S-Hair Bands-Hunger-Holy Wars-Arguements-George W. Bush-The Damnedable Government-When People Don't Receive Things Things They Need And Deserve (more)
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