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Why do we all look for the light in life... but then all we find is darkness
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41 years old
spring hill, Florida
United States

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Religion: Other
Orientation: Straight
Dating status: Hurt
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MEMBER SINCE: 10 Jul 2006, 9:23 pm
STAR SIGN: Pisces
LAST LOGIN: 15 Mar 2011, 6:21 pm
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Watch as this tear falls into empty space
See it fall into life's nameless place
Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light
That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight
As it falls watch it, its color has changed
From blue to bright red, it has a wide range

There it goes all alone, it continues to fall
With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all
Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free
Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be
Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye
A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry

A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul
The darkness of the night has taken its toll Pain of love
you know i know its over
you cheated your way out
left my life forever
left me with tears of blood
hitting the flawed floors
put me in a rage of depression
how can you live your life
knowing you hurt me
you burned my bloody heart
wacthed it burn to ashes
laughing at me mocking me
opening my dark thoughts sharing my cold feelings with you
did you mean it......... when you said you cared
did you mean it......... when you said you loved me
I know i meant it
Dont walk away before i say what i have to say
dont leave i need you.....
you are the light the brightens my world
without you im stuck in the darkness alone..... again
when im hurt i dont feel a thing
you hurt me alot
cant feel..... cant think..... cant eat...... cant sleep.....
i puke everday you took my shallow soul.........
ill always love you until i fade in the air.....
my wounds will never heal........
ill always be a shatered mirror.....
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Pain, it the obstacle to which we can never defend,
No one can help us be they family or friend,
Pain is the tormentor that pulled us towards that ledge,
It’s all their fault they pushed us over the edge,
It was too late when we fell down,
Through the sky onto the black charred ground,
Can you feel how much we hate and despise,
Let us tear, pull and rip out our eyes,
You see this is humanities ideal,
To tell each other how much hurt we feel,
This is how it should be for all time,
When we are chasing sanity from our minds,
How we would cut our skin and let flow our black blood,
Knowing that we would be washing the agony away for good,
To be gone from the world that teases us so inside of a coffin of silk and gold,
To be remembered fondly even when our bodies are cold,
They caused us to cry tears of utter nothingness,
They forgot to be our guide when we wandered the wilderness,
Can you see how we’re drowning in our sin?
Let us scratch and peel away our skin,
They pushed us into an early grave; they pulled us into the earth by our hair,
But the thing you have to ask is, do we really care?
I think the answer is no because despite their persistence,
We remain even in death empty, indifferent,
Humanity helped us to live, but encouraged us to die,
It taught to disobey, to steal, kill and lie,
Outcasts we lived our futures now,
Drinking deep from the blood that dripped from God’s brow,
We don’t give a damn even now about our fears,
Let us claw and scream to rid us of the whining in our ears,
But we don’t need them; we are free now, in death in hell,
We are free from our confines, free from our shell,
Come, let’s free our anger, let’s lose our distress,
And together we shall surrender to eternal darkness
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See me
Hear me
But don't touch me
You should fear me
Lived your life dearly
'Cause I'm seriously disturbed
That's my word
Straight to my mother
Who found another one to play sucker
'Cause I ain't the one
Who put shade in your sun
And took all your shine
Watch me get mine
Feel my love burn
Me for my sins
Watch the world turn
The saga begins
Losses and wins
Angels and sins
Dancin' on top
O' the head of a pin
Don't know where I'm going
But I know where I've been
I can't hear a sound
I clapped a full round
I came to get down
I came to get dirty
I came to get even
my soul is broken.
I'm living through a lot of pain everyday that i have to deal with,
which is making me sorrowful.
No one ever stays by my side when i truly need them and no one ever will.
Everything is hopeless and tragic and I keep yearning for the day I will be free from pain.
Love is unlikely to happen to Me because i'm isolate myself and are suspicious of peoples motives.
I stand in the shadows of the world, watching what I can never have.
The bruises I carry never seems to heal, My mind is dark and no one seems to understand or wants to help.
As always,










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Acid rain falls or are those
tears which burn

fiery paths of hurt down our faces
and on our neck

where we can't swallow or breath
can this choking be our end

yes, but the pain has just begun
as the heart thirsts for love

but only soaks in anguish
which drains it of life

tearing a jagged scar
a raw wound open and screeching

echoing through a tortured mind
then time is the enemy

all that remains is a skeleton of
agonistic spirit

singing a haunting melody
pain, tension, fatigue,
depression

anger, aggression, frustration
all these unwanted sensations

buring, hurting, tearing
our heart alone, cold and fearing

why won't they let us sleeplet us rest
let us forget

to eraicate, eliminate, destroy all
our regrets

these memories inside
swirling, twirling

unwilling to reside in the
corner of our minds

repeating,resistings, insisting
refusing to be deived its
recognition

of its position in our
frustration

confusion, delusion
ah, to close our eyes
and let time fly by

because there is
so much to gain


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In the darkness of thee insecurities
Swung blind and blackening in the moonless air
death, and thy bones were tombless as their flesh

just a feeling exists within
thee life Illusions never exist
darkness is where thou from

Pain his only affection
completely blind to others
thee ture No one really cares
thee one they talk about
they point at

thoughts every single second
And illuminate
Clouding thee vision with doubt

A betrayed souls dark companions belittle and abuse
thee garden that you’ve grown.

there is no straight line
contorted and winding

Heart is ripping, and thee soul is fading
The more they seem to taunt.
Thy pull the sting for which thee strive to cling,
Ripping nails
This mortal shell thee wish to be free

TO THE ONE THAT ARE SOME THING THEY ARE NOT YOU
HAVE COME TO ME I SEE YOU ARE NOT TRUE TO BE HERE
TO SEE YOU HERE IS SICKING TO ME YOUR HEART IS IN LIGHTIN TO ME I HAVE NO TIME FOR YOU AND YOU SOUL
IS NOT DARK IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO RUN I WELL COME FOR YOU I WELL MAKE YOU MY PLAY TOY AND WENT I'M DONE WITH YOU YOU WELL KNOW OF HELL
I'M SERIOUSLY DISTURBED AND I WELL LOVE TO PLAY WITH YOUR SOUL!!!!

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26 May 2007, 9:51 pm


I feel as if I`m tied and caged most of the time..

I`m so alone, in the place where i live now..

 






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