I never wanted to impact anyone's life in any way; bad or good. I just wanted to remain anonymous. I'm not saying I've done that but I've always been about staying low and out of sight. I never desired to draw any attention to myself but, I suppose it was inevitable. Things haven't been going so well for me; with all the family issues and personal problems. I've had a lot of time to myself during these events and all of this free time gave me plenty of time to think. I had a decision to make. And I made it. Long story short, this is my last blog. Ever. It's time I went back to the shadows. It's time I stopped drawing attention to myself. It's time I disappeared. Time I walked back to the gutter I crawled out of and stick to my element. Being out here was a blast, but I knew where I belonged; by myself, and that's exactly where I'm going. I hope you all enjoyed reading my writings and much as I enjoyed writing them. And I thank you all for the support you've shown me; for putting that battery o my back to write better. I won't forget that, and I'll carry that with me for a long, long time. I'm sure this site with do just fine without little ol' me. We've got a great staff here who are excellent at what they do and I'll miss them too. For all of you who were there during my brightest moments, I'm honored to have shared them with you. Even to the lame ass fucks who were hell bent on making my life harder, I thank you too. You may have taken what I said the wrong way, never given me the benefit of the doubt, acted like a complete whore, went "psycho" on me (and for that matter, everyone else), and handled some situations like total fucking idiot, but I thank you anyway. I still think you're a bunch of douchebags, but I've forgiven far more degenerate assholes for muchy, much more so, why not do thing same here? Motherfuckers, I mean anyway, I hope you all take care of yourselves and I hope you all find the happiness you rightfully deserve. Peace out gang; I'm gonna go light a candle for RomeoBlu and one for CatCat1032; cuz one more candle won't hurt....

(If you REALLY need to reach me [ha], IM me on AIM, XXGodSentDeathXx)

Saying goodbye for the very last time...

Jay