DATE: 17 Oct 2007, 7:57 pm / MOOD: Vampiric

   Looking up at the castle I wondered what it was like to live back in the 14th century. To be surrounded by people that you could barely call friend, for fear that one day they might stab you in the back.

  As I crossed the threshold of the castle, I felt something, almost like a thousand eyes watching me. Even though I was all alone, I could feel a world of eyes on me. Sound strange? Well I can tell you it is not a very comfortable feeling, I can assure you. 

I made my way into the main room and looked around. It was deserted, with the exception of a few pieces of furniture left over from another place in time. The dust was thick ... all over the place. It was almost hard to breathe.

 The feeling of eyes stayed with me and I tried to place it in a part of my mind I did not venture very often. Like a shadow I hoped it would stay there, but would it? ... 

Look into the shadows of your mind ... what do you see?

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DATE: 14 Oct 2007, 6:18 pm / MOOD: Demonic

   I sit here thinking about random things in life ... one thing that really gets me 'mad' and that is a mild way to put it goes something like this ... I am in the process of trying to help my mother get funds for my grandmother ... funds that she has worked all her life for and now that she needs it, we can't get to it.

   I have called the company that has her funds over and over again and everytime I call I get ten different answers to one f****** question. I had no idea that all the idiots and stupid people of the world worked in one place ... but yes ladies and gentlemen it is possible. This is, in part, one of the reasons that I have not been around for a while. I am trying really hard not to let it get to me but sometimes it is not easy. Everytime I think of it, it just really pisses me off. It's just really frustrating when you do EVERYTHING a company tells you to do to get to an end result that will help a loved one, yet the company keeps giving you the run around. 

Even with rain falling down all around you ... can you feel it or is it just out of reach? ...  

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DATE: 01 Feb 2006, 7:53 pm / MOOD: Angry

When someone you know lies to you how does it make you feel? Besides feeling betrayed, hurt and broken to the point were you can no longer trust them. Question, what would you do if you found out that the person that has lied to you is your own brother??? The one person who you thought you could trust above everyone, even your friends. I mean if your friends lie to you, you confide in someone right? ... usually a memeber of your family or another close friend, but when you find out that your own brother has lied to you, what do you do then??? ...

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DATE: 17 Jan 2006, 8:01 pm / MOOD: Other

You wake up to find the sun spilling throw your window and then you find the moon is shining upon you.You then know it's time for you to go into the arms of slumber. What does the night truely hold for each of us? Will you find a restful peace or will you wake up in terror? Will the Phantom show you the way to happiness or the way into darkness? ...

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DATE: 10 Jan 2006, 7:03 pm / MOOD: Other

What lies for us in the 11th hour? Do you want to know? .. and if you do, are you ready for it? I can tell you that I am, what would it be like? I can tell you that it will rip you apart but then it nurses you back to health. After sometime it lets you go ... but will you know? Will you be able to feel it's arms around you ... even in your 11th hour? ...

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DATE: 09 Jan 2006, 6:14 pm / MOOD: Other

I sit here looking into the fire
it looks so inviting, but do I dare touch it?
What would be the cost if I do? Can you tell me?
The color ever changing ... does it know? Does it know I am lost in Darkness?
How can it, how can it know? To be lost in the one I love so much ... how can it know that I am really lost?
Or is it that I am trying to find my way through the darkness of the fire?
The flames burn bright, but does that mean that I can see through the flames? Can you see through the flames? Can you bare to touch what is off limits to some?
To touch what is off limits to many would mean what? The flames call out to you ... will you answer the call? That is up to the one lost in Darkness ...

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DATE: 08 Jan 2006, 6:06 pm / MOOD: Other

As I sit here in the darkness of the night I am reminded of a few things ... the first one is that the sounds of the night can, and will, make you stop and think ... the second is that the night comes in varying degrees of darkness, or blackness, what I mean by this is, sometimes it can be so dark you can't even see your hand in front of your face ... and the other one is .... well, plain and simple, don't forget your flashlight ... for if you have your flashlight you can see through all the above ...... or can you?

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