PHANTOM OF THE OPERA, Avatar, Queen of the Damned&Interview with the Vampire, Van Helsing, Lost Boys, House of 1000 Corpses, all Tim Burton movies, The Others, Passengers, Paranormal Activity, Sin City, Spaceballs, Short Circuit, Billy Madison, The Dark Crystal, The Wizard of Oz, Jay and Silent Bob Strikes Back... and yes of course, the Notebook. lol
TV Shows:
Lost-the best dam show of all time I dnt care what people say! True Blood, Heroes, Mercy, Six Feet Under, House, Trauma, The Steve Wilkos show-thats some intense and fucked up shit right there, lol. The Doctors, Family Guy, South Park...

All kinds...whatever strikes my mood really! There isn't any kind that I dont like from time to time...
I have my phases I guess

adopt your own virtual pet!

Sadly I haven't read any books in a really long time! I start em but never finish them, just like in high school. lol

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Well my perspectives change a lot but here goes.. At first I come across a little too quiet and serious, but give it some time and u will see I'm a goofball :) An optimist, too, though not as naive as many think.. I dont dwell on flaws, but I wont ignore em either. I do think the world would b all right if we could stop pointing fingers & let their guard down long enough to look for & actually bring out the good in each other. Why get caught up in all the bullshit? Life and love is what u make of it, no more and no less! Having finally learned that, I feel like I'm finally starting to live a little!

My boyfriend is Keith Caquelin. He is quiet like me and funny..& tho his seemingly big head might fool u he is one of the most gentle, caring souls you'll ever have the privilege to meet. :p It took me a while to believe that he has a heart of gold; we got off to a rough start but we got past it. Life is great when u stop second-guessing everthing & look beyond the things that don't matter. At some point we found ourselves frozen in time..we were worrying bout the future & stuck in the past, & obsessed with fixing things & saving people that our gut kept telling us to move on from. Also it sucks when u try to be there for the people u still care about & used to relate to.. but they stubbornly refuse to 'settle' for a brand new day.. & as they become cynical & hopeless, u feel like an ass for letting yourself be happy... Its an endless cycle of shame. So now I think that, until u stop beating yourself up, or trying to lay blame on someone else, u will never find happiness, & u will always be distracted from the 1 thing u really want in the Now. U gotta live in this moment, but it never fails that when you're on the verge of change, there will always be some desperate people who call themselves your friend, that put their passive guilt trips on you.. your genuine concern and empathy won't be enough for them. They refuse comfort, unless u confess that you're miserable too. So u cave, u throw up your hands, & let them think what they want, so that they can get thru the day with some semblance of hope & positivity. Then when they call u out, u feel obligated to tell them what they wanna hear under all the pressure & guilt.. that's when you start second-guessing yourself..u try to think clearly bout what u want but everything starts to feel out of context as your life comes to a standstill.. The only way out is to be true to yourself, without shame..For some of us that is hard, esp. if u have a big heart! You may hurt the people who have their minds set, & if they lash out at you in spite, then they have shown u their true colors. If u won't accept change, then how can u expect to remain in someone's life?

So I don't believe in fate; u can either let the past consume u, or you can make the best of the present. Tragically for some, precious things seem meaningless, till they've become part of the past.. till they are standing still & looking back. Things change, so go with it, and hold on tight the first time around so u don't end up with regrets. Don't make people wait for u cause you're scared, you're not protecting anyone or anything by shutting people out.. Plus they just might get sick of feeling like they're wrapped around everyone's finger; & they may go on to find a love that goes both ways...& when they do, there won't be that fairy tale 2nd chance.. u cant expect someone to create a whole new set of regrets, just to give u the happy ending u refused to embrace? U weren't ready? Bullshit... theres no such thing. U weren't willing. Now you wanna torture me by torturing yourself, but I'm done being masochistic. I'm not going to fight to tear down your walls to save u from yourself, just to prove to u how much I always cared, cause u obviously already know that..it's the reason u cant let go. I still believe in you, but u cant have your cake & eat it too. Like u told me.. life goes on.

I feel we've both learned a lot from our mistakes and those of the people around us. I think that what keeps us together is we can accept change and make the best of it; we're open for a fresh start.. Not too scared or too proud to change our attitudes. & we find a way to turn everything into a joke, which is great cause without him I'd be WAY too serious. :)

Well there's the most recent chapter of my life, hope it's helped someone! Still no regrets, except that if it werent for my man, I'd still be in TN, where its approx. 20 degrees warmer right now *shivers*... & I would still have my accent! Now it only comes out when i drink :D I miss my parents a lot, & some good friends. I wish I could afford to see them more!

I dont have kids of my own yet, but Keith has a 6 yr old named Shelby who I see as the closest thing to my own. She cracks me up & she loves me to death which is really cool! Hoping one of these days we'll be able to give her a brother or sister. Gotta face it, we would make hot kids!

I'm a lefty, only child, always late, 24 yrs old & still dont drive. I'm tarded when it comes to directions...it's not fair that birds know which way is south and I don't! Also I've always been anxious and clumsy behind the wheel of any heavy equipment.. like cars. That's just my big quirk I guess, lol. .

~Adventure & spontaneity
~A goofy sense of humor
~certain songs, like "Aerials" by System of a Down... and "Living Dead Girl" by Rob Zombie!
~a nice ass :)
~a man who isnt afraid to show his passion and emotion.

~fake people!
~a stinky sack!!!
~Your face...OUCH** J/K

~Taking long walks and letting my petty concerns melt away as I surround myself with the simple beauty of nature. Camping, exploring, anything outdoors and spontaneous.
~Listening to music, playing my keyboard...I usually try to learn songs that get stuck in my head but sometimes I compose my own music.
~Spending time with my bestfriend&lover, and his daughter Shelby