judge me if u wish.... but this is just my thoughts and feelings on the matter.......

self harm has been a part of my life for a few years now...... there have been a few months were i havnt cut at all.... but it was always there... i kept my blades, just incase i needed them... and i am damn glad i did.....i dnt really care what anyone says......im not encouraging people to cut, i am just saying dnt judge those who do.... yeh people tell me to stop... i kno i need to... but do u kno what??? i dnt wanna stop.. i like it and i am quite happy with it... it is part of who i am.. and its a part that will never go away.... i am ashamed and proud of my scars, ashamed coz of the pain they caused to the few people who love me, but i am proud coz they show how strong i am... and that i survived... my scars define me.. they are unique to me.... a map of my pain.... of my own individual journey.,...occasionally i wish they wernt there.... but a lot of the time i am glad they are there....they are my defence... my shield... i kno that may sound odd.. but they are they show how i deffend myself... how i strengthen myself....people may think it is strange.... but fuck them.... they dnt understand..... they are ignorant, closed minded people, it is no different from punching walls, same out come... pain, stress relief, so how come mashing up knuckles on germ infested walls is acceptable, but taking a clean blade and cutting neat lines into flesh is totally unnaceptable and strange????   society is fucked...

 thanx for reading this..