http://www.gothopia.comGothopia.com http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=5717 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=5717 I’m pretty sure I’m a pain slut. I don’t like being hurt bad or anything, but I feel so good after it’s done.When I know I’m going to get hurt, I put all my negative emotions into that one moment. When the pain finally comes, it’s amazing, I can’t even begin to describe it.It’s like having a new slate and nothing from the past can hurt you. In a way, it’s almost like a spiritual cleansing.But I’m not gonna lie, cuz I like pain in a completely unholy way as well. *Nudge, nudge. Wink, wink.*But when done sexually or sadistically, it’s different. Not spiritual, but still very important and releasing. I don’t give up control often, so to let someone do that to me is very special. Or maybe the most brutal form of control! Dun dun dun!And if your wondering why I’m talking about pain, it’s because I got the other side of my lip done! ..... Sun, 21 Sep 2008 12:09:34 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=3212 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=3212 i have come to the conclusion that i really like making movies. in my film class we have been doing this alot. horror movies, stop mtion and comercials. in my horror movie, my partner aaron got eaten by a giant ball of silly putty. we helped another student with his and where eaten by tofu. my class is inmaginative. but we are also working with film. me and aaron are entering thew school board zoom fest witha video about speeking up and fight for what you belive in. yeah, its about bulling. kinda trivial. i have been using alot of dir en grey music for background music and most of them match what i'm doing, whic is great. i love film.  oh man. this is, well i don't know. but i really want to get into the bussiness. ..... Thu, 16 Nov 2006 06:11:15 -0800 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=3171 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=3171 Wow, i ahve had a intresting morning! i was on the bus to school when our breaks locked up and started smoking. then suddenly there was fire. we all rushed off the bus into the forest beside us and to the house only a few meters away. our bus driver used a fire extingisher to put out the blaze. in the end, only our tires caught on fire and satrted to leek. we had to wait another half an hour for a new bus to come and get us. i was only 17 min late for my first class and my teacher thought it was hillarious. i hope the rest of the day is as adventful as this morning.  ..... Mon, 6 Nov 2006 06:11:55 -0800 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=3138 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=3138 Jeff Powell? oh man. in tech we are doing editings of movies. right now we are fiddling with a scene from the show 11 hour. well the first scene the detective guy asks 'jeff powell?'. we have now heard that sentance over a billion times, and it hillarious. or extremly annoying to others. but i think it great. well marshll, a kid in my class, ran down that hall asking for a jeff powell. once again, it was great. oh ghad, there it is again.     ..... Fri, 27 Oct 2006 07:10:49 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=3062 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=3062 ok everyone, this is what is going on. what we are doing is called mission 1017. on october 17, there is a great amount of energy will come down to earth and increase everything by the millionth. so everthing you do will be ampilfied, every happy thought, every mean word. we need to get over a million people to try and only think and do good things. this will bring back so much positive energy that it will do amazing things. heal, bring hope and ect. i hope you will join this cause on the 17 of october. if you do, please leave me a post. if you have and thing to say about this for or against, please leave me a post.thank youforest  ..... Thu, 12 Oct 2006 06:10:36 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=3029 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=3029 yeah... alot of thinds have happened lately, and wow its been bussy. me and my boyfriend are back together, but its not the same, we have to rebulid that trust thing. its a little odd. i have made my first video ever, its about shoes. shoes that run away. very intresting. i also got drunk for the first time...ever. off two coolers, thats it. then i had another and a beer. i was sober by two in the morning. the funny part is that it was with my friend and mom... my mom. my brother was there, playing tricks on me, i nearly smaked him, he was so annoying. no live changing event have happened so far, except my kitchen is almost complete. hoot and haller.its almost trukey day!  ..... Tue, 3 Oct 2006 05:10:32 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2992 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2992 Hello I have missed you so Pray this is not the end But deep in your soul You wish it is These things i cannot say For fear of cutting to deep Leave now I wish you where gone i away from you I'm breaking like a twig And you won't save me I won't let you. ..... Tue, 19 Sep 2006 07:09:11 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2980 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2980 Wow, i haven't done this is a long time... Eh Ghad. i'm in my video class right now (thank you Gothopia, for destroying my concertation.) we have started stop motion, whih is going to reall fun. i already have a idea. for you who read Ann Rice, you should know what the savage graden is. i want to make a video about that. to have clips of people walking down the street, a flower slowly blooming, ect. there would be voice over, explaining my version of the idea. it would be at least intrestion. The porblem is that i doubt many would unerstand my point of view. i also doubt that you do. i just seem that i can be very confusing. When we get the sites up a running, i'll put a link up. Then you can go and at least try to grasp the concept of my madness. ..... Fri, 15 Sep 2006 06:09:18 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2963 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2963 today is sept 11, the day the Trade Center was destroyed by terroists. I live in canada, so i can only just understand the pain the americans felt, fear from your loved ones. i bearly know my american family, but i felt a chrushing grief, when I was told the news, i nearly broke down in class. we must never froget this happened, that so many died. i my not tbe american, but i can sharf there grief. today, give them your prayers, for thoes who have gone before and thoes who must carry te pain for the rest of there life. we must not forget. ..... Mon, 11 Sep 2006 06:09:18 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2938 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2938 unfortunatly, i did not come up with these 1. Eat all his plums. 2. Watch Regency films at the loudest volume the TV will go to. 3. Paint his headbright bluewhile he sleeps. 4. Throw a Surprise Birthday Party 11 months early. 5. Haggle his underwear to fan girls. 6. Forge lustful sayings about Tsunades boobs in his journal and read them to random Sound nin. 7. Scream, COME, OROCHI-KUN! IT IS TIME TO DANCE!, yank him up from his chair, and begin a waltz. 8. Carry around a lobster. Make the lobster talk and walk on his head. 9. Cry and demand he make a casserole with the remains of the lobster once he successfully murders it. 10. Hire Maito Gai and his youthful charge Lee to come and cheer him up. 11. Make muffins, and cram them down his throat. 12. Stand on his desk with a wooden spoon in your hand for two hours. 13. At breakfast, suddenly snort and scream, and then shove the comics page into his face. 14. Final Fantasy Cosplay. 15. Shoot h ..... Sun, 3 Sep 2006 19:09:21 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2937 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2937 What's your inner power? (Girls only sorry. Beautiful anime pictures, lengthy results) Empathy- Your inner power is Empathy! This means that you have a talent for identifying others emotions, often by simply glancing at them. You are EXTREMELY shy and quiet. People sometimes dont notice youre around and seem surprised to find out you even exist in a big class. Youre the often silent, goody two shoes, and few get passed the walls youve built up to stop yourself being hurt, as you no doubt have been in the past. Not everyone understands you, in fact some think that youre a snob or worse because you rarely participate in group activities. Youre extremely sensitive, even the least harsh of words can hurt you. Only your very few, closest friends who have earned your hard-to-get trust know who you really are inside; a sweet, gentle young woman who is lonely and so desperately needing friends to support you. You can get very depressed and not always kno ..... Sun, 3 Sep 2006 18:09:39 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2936 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2936 Your life at Hogwarts and much, much more! (girls only, VERY detailed results) Your name: Stella ViniscoHouse: SlytherinBF: Draco MalfoyBFF: HermioneEnemies: PansyRep: Nice,beautiful,misunderstood Slytherin What people think:Harry: I don't like her. She's always mean to me and my friends. Plus she's in Slytherin and dating Malfoy...yuck. But, sometimes she's really nice, which throws me off. I think maybe she was put in the right house for the wrong reasons and is trying hard to fit in.Ron: She's really mean to me when Draco is around, but when he isn't she quickly apologizes for his behavior. I really don't know what to think about her. Yet I think she's just trying to fit in as much as she can.Hermione: I was partnered up with her in potions once, ever since then we've had a secret friendship. In public we act like we hate each other, but in private we're the best of f ..... Sun, 3 Sep 2006 18:09:49 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2838 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2838 Hello! i have returned from Europe, finally! its so beautiful over there, and there are many strange things!(some toillets wash themselves!). i'm really happy to be back and am going to put some pics up, i can't wait! ..... Mon, 7 Aug 2006 19:08:24 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2510 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2510 OH WOW! I HAVE FOUND THE BEST THING SINCE SLICED BREAD! Now that the super energy high is gone down, i wiil explain. my friend Draco_Orbotos lent my friend FeatherMist the JTHM Director cut book, then i got it, and wow my life was changed! and what is JTHM? IT IS JOHNNY THE HOMICIDAL MANIAC! THE BEST VIOLENT BOOK IN THE WORLD! the creator of invador zim and lenore. his name is JHONEN VASQUES, ALL HAIL! and if you want to to see pic of JOHNNY, WHO I LOVE SO MUCH! look in my photos. must make group. ..... Sun, 11 Jun 2006 18:06:28 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2284 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2284 hello people, will you do this quiz for me. especially my firends. i would be great if you did thus for me!! love you with all my heart! 1.Your Full Name: ---> 2. Age: ---> 3. Favorite Color? ---> 4. Favorite Movie: ---> 5. Favorite Song: ---> 6. Favorite Band: ---> 7. Most Embarassing Moment: ---> 8. Are you a virgin? ---> 9. What makes you really happy? ---> 10. What makes you the maddest? -----> 11. Tell me what you think of me: -----> 12. Do you know me or if you don't, do you wanna meet me? -----> *************************************************** *** . . . . . . . . . . . . HERE COMES THE FUN . . . . . . . . . . . *** *************************************************** 1. Are we friends? ---> 2. Do you have a crush on me/are you attracted to me? ---> 3. Would you kiss me? ---> 6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I asked you? ---> 8. ..... Mon, 15 May 2006 17:05:10 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2226 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2226 sometimes i wonder if all this is worth anything. it pisses me off how people work. all our life we WORK to get good grades, we WORK to get good jobs, we WORK TO GET GOOD HOMES! FUCK IT ALL!!! we are all just going to die any way! so why do we try, why can't we just live our life the way WE WANT! sometimes i wish everything would just stop. not the stop where we relax, but the stop where we stop existing. where there is nothing, not even thought. i guess we humans are just to chaotic, fucking human, fucking go in the cornner and fucking die! i guess we could stop, it would take awhile, but we could do it, or we could give up everthing and live the way we wish. but that would be selfish. its a continues kucking kick in the balls. ..... Mon, 8 May 2006 15:05:52 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2185 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2185 Pain, open wounds. falling into the soft calling of enternal sleep, dreams swallows your song of life. such sweetness is the songs of thoese who are the lost. ..... Wed, 3 May 2006 11:05:05 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2174 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2174 i feel so sad right now. do you ever wonder if your friends actually like you, or talk behind your back? i'm alway asking myself about this. also i feel so ugly around the people i hang out with. i think there all so beautiful, and then there is me, this ugly, dirty, disgusting thing. but i gess thats what makes me ugly. i hate being like this, i have to change, but i can't help it. oh gods, i sound like i'm fucking helpless, but i'm not. i'm so depressed, why do i think like this. i know i'm no better or wores than the rest of them, but it hurts so much. dose any one else feel like this? and dose one of my friends make me feel like this or is i just me? ..... Mon, 1 May 2006 18:05:06 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2138 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2138 sometimes i think i have no life, i know this may sound stupid because i'm alive= life, but still. i swim all the time, draw and sit in my room. once while hanging out with friends i just decided to make the world largest tin foil ball and didn't partake in thew conversation any more. how stupid, i hate being this way. ..... Thu, 27 Apr 2006 08:04:08 -0700 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2110 http://www.gothopia.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=2110 When the window washer come, will youjust leave me hear? Why hide the truth, but if i must. Dear child, i'll lie for you, can i lie with you? Running from the wrold i know, the wall just must go up. To your dark embrace, love blood crimmson kisses call. Oh love, i'll cry with you, oh Gods, i die for you! Shotgun fathers, inbred mothers, beat us in our place, i'll hold on to you. I'll hould on to you! Catch me now, i'm falling so fast. In your soft arms, kissed crimmson blood love fills my very soul. I said i'd hold on to you, even as i die for you. ..... Tue, 25 Apr 2006 09:04:08 -0700